One More Crisis

So yesterday I got in my first real car accident. I mean, I tapped the back of my mom's car once and messed up her paint job. Anyway, yesterday after work I was driving home there was a guy who had to stop to wait to turn onto a side street off of highway 16. So, my co-worker Kendall was driving behind me and didn't realize that I had come to a full stop. She was going probably 35-40mph when she hit my trunk. I started to move forward as much as I could once the guy turned, but there was nothing we could have done. I smacked my head on the headrest, but other than that I am fine and so is she.

Her Jeep fared pretty well. It has some minor scratches on the front bumper. My car on the other hand...







I couldn't drive it home because the tire was rubbing the frame on the driver's side. We had to have it towed. It is sitting in my driveway and it makes me sad. We can't get the fixing started until Monday what with the 4th of July coming right up. Kendall will be picking me up for work in the mornings, but it sucks to not have a car again.

I just really wish Casey was here. It would help me deal with this a lot better. I didn't realize how bad my car was until we got back to it on the side of the road to give the keys to the tow truck man. That was when I actually started to let myself be upset about it. I am doing ok now... I am a bit sore, but it is alright and not unexpected.

wow....

that was -really- long for being filled mostly with unimportant ramblings about my life...oh well, gnight!

-Me

And now, for something completely different:

A post from me. its late, really late...its about the time ive been going to bed the past few nights, only this time its not because ive been staying up reading Harry Potter like a recent addict...which shouldnt really be seen as a simile i guess, since i -am- a fairly recent addict...i've been working to read through at least book 6 by the time the 6th movie comes out so that rachel and i can go see the midnight showing together. i just finished book 5 after having read just over 500 pages of it in 2 days...for me that is totally epic like you wouldnt believe to be reading that many pages of -anything- in 2 days... :-P

tonight, however, im just up this late because i dont get on the computer very much anymore. i got back to my apartment around midnight and thought "huh, i think i'll get on the computer for a bit before i go to bed", and now its 2:45 in the AM...

Anywho, things are goin pretty well, all things considered. I've been installing security systems for APX alarm this summer. no, you dont have to be a dishonest scumbag to -install- the systems, just to sell them...all the same, leaving out information here and there certainly has its place. case and point about the sales reps: i almost had to take down a system i had just barely put up because we (data entry and I) found out the the credit for the account was run on the customer's deceased brother......now apparently this is not nearly as common as i thought it was, pretty rare, actually...but still.

i'm mostly babbling right now with no real form or reason as to my paragraph structure. but since i never really post anything, i figured someone out there might be remotely interested in my goings-on, er, going-ons...interested in what's going on in my life. anyway, i was installing for about a month in albany, GA (pronounced al *bay* knee by the true locals) and for the rest of the summer i'll probably be where i'm at now, in montgomery, AL.

its been fun. its been incredibly frustrating at times. i have completely broken down once or twice (out of the view of the customer, of course) for how i couldnt get something to work or how i was ruining someone's house...but with anything, you have your ups and downs. i have plenty if stories, but none worth randomly sharing on a blog without some kind of reason to share it i suppose.

I go to Rachel's house every other weekend. its always the highlite of my...fortnights...after two weeks at a time of not being able to see her, hold her, or kiss her, it always feels nice to remember what its like to have a fiancee you love with all of your heart. her mom, of course, is always there and she is a blast as well. i honestly couldnt ask for better (future) in-laws. if you pardon my attempt at explaining it, its not like hanging out with rachel and her mom, its like hanging out with rachel and a mutual friend that i met through rachel and happen to not have known for nearly as long. i feel i have a healthy respect/fear of her dad. knowing that he really isnt nearly as intimidating as he might seem, but all the while still knowing that he decides whether or not i get to stay alive...its a good balance, id say...

er, not wanting my comments about rachel to be outdone by my comments about her mom/parents, i end, sappily, this way: I -really- need to get to bed as, afterall, in 3.5 hours ill be waking back up to text/talk to the most beautiful, wonderful, amazing woman that i know.

-Me

I Should Update On Wedding Stuff

but there is nothing to update. Here is a quick update on my dad.

He flew up to Indiana on Friday. On Monday he left and flew to Bangor, Maine. After that, he got to fly to Shannon, Ireland, but didn't get to leave the airport for long (he got fish and chips). Then he heads to Bucharest, Romania and then to Kazakhstan for a few days. Those are the only things I really know right now.

Thats about it. I thought you might want to know.

...And There It Goes

My dad left today. He will be in Indiana until Monday and then he heads to Afghanistan. He will be in a tent with no way of contacting us for the first little while that he is there. This sucks. I feel blank.

So Here It Is

I am going to complain about my life in this post. I am warning you all before you continue reading.

I hate my life right now. The only thing that is keeping me from curling up in a ball and ceasing to care about anything is the people who care about me. It just hit me about 20 minutes ago that my dad is leaving in like 5 days. He will be gone for a year. So for a year I have to deal with my dad being gone, not being able to get married until next year, and did I mention my dad being gone for a year with no leave?? I read things that my other friends are going through with their wedding planning and how hard it is to wait for a few months without their significant other before the big day. Guess what folks, I get to feel that for a freaking year! It must be really hard to be getting married over the summer, finding an apartment, and being sealed to the man you love for eternity when you want to.

My life is hard right now and even though I know it will all be fine a few years down the road when I am sealed to Casey it will all be ok. Right now though, every time we get a wedding announcement in the mail, every time I read someone's wedding plans, and especially when I see the young married couples in my ward I want to cry. It just isn't fair that the military gets to interfere in my life once again. And it isn't even like my dad is in a high enough position to ask for time off for my wedding. This just sucks.

I am not mad at any of my friends who are having minor issues with wedding planning, I am not mad at my dad or the military, I am mad at the situation and how much it sucks. Ok.... I'm done now. I hope I haven't offended anyone.

Keeping My Head Above Water

This has been a pretty rough week for me emotionally. I am working through a lot of residual issue and such, but I think that I will be mostly ok soon. My life is moving forward: working, cleaning, talking to my wonderful fiance, reading, being creative, and everything else. All things considered I am doing better than I could be.

On the wedding front: we ordered my wedding and temple dresses last Saturday! I am really excited about that. I can't wait to try on my very own dress... it is gonna be amazing! We have to wait for the order to get here and all that, but its not like I don't have time. Other than the dresses, the wedding planning has essentially come to a full and complete stop. Not having any clue when the date will be makes it hard to do any planning.

On the family front: my dad comes home for 10 days starting Monday! It will be wonderful to see him. He and my mom are going on a cruise for a few days, so I will be alone int he house again. I hate that. Oh well, my mom gets home from trek today and Casey will be here this weekend. I took Monday off of work so I can spend some time with my dad, mom, and Casey (until he heads back to work). It is going to be a good weekend.

Well that is it from me for now. Much love to all of my wonderful and supportive followers =). It really helps.

<3 Rachel