I Never Learn

I just never do. Every time I make progress, I get shoved back by some stupid thing. Maybe it is time to deactivate my facebook for a while. It seems to be the main cause of my frustrations. Time for some fervent prayer.

Something Witty

Maybe I just need to preface things I say on facebook with something like:

I am not looking for advice, I am just here to complain.

I get tired of unsolicited advice sometimes. Maybe it just bothers me more right now because it is 1030, I am exhausted, but can't sleep because my brain won't shut up. It is times like these that make me want to drown my sorrows in a gallon of ice cream. Too bad we don't have the money for ice cream.

It Just Keeps Coming

Every time I think we are past the stress, it attacks again with full force. The Jeep died about a month or so ago. We have been trying to figure out where we were going to get a "new" car. We finally decided on a used LDS mission car. They are well maintained and less expensive than other used vehicles. After applying for a loan, being denied for not having enough of a credit history (that is a whole rant by itself), and finally getting approved for a loan, I thought it would be smooth sailing. False.

We are having issues with getting the actual check. The church wants one thing on the check, USAA wants something else. I just want to have our own car. I am very grateful for the super pleasant USAA people. They have been really wonderful through this whole process, but I am still frustrated. So much for my naive thought that this would be easy. I guess the universe showed me.

Stuck

Casey received a letter from Penn State today... he didn't get in. I can't say I am surprised, but I am still pretty devastated. I don't want to be here for another year. I want to get out of this tiny town and live somewhere else. I have been making an effort to be happy where I am, but frankly, this time in my life is pretty crappy. I see my husband for roughly 5 hours a day (that is time awake obviously) and then he is off to one job or the other. He works two jobs and we can still barely keep up with our bills. It won't always be like this. I just need to put my head down keep moving.

What Is Up With This

I have been feeling very angry the last couple of days and I can't figure out why. Tiny things set me off, Casey buying the Post for the crossword puzzle, comments made on Facebook, TV shows, and so forth. For those thinking, "oh, it must be a woman thing," it isn't. Maybe I need to just remove myself from the internet and most social interactions for a little bit, I don't know. I suppose we'll see if I feel better in the next few days and if not, there may be some drastic measures taken.