Gravity

There was a dance performed on So You Think You Can Dance that describes how I feel about my anxiety.

I live with something that is always there. Sometimes I think I have shaken it, but then it reminds me of its presence. Sometimes is does control me. Sometimes I just want to curl up in a ball and cry, because I can't conquer this thing. 

Then I realize that it may always be there and I may very well have to deal with it until the day I die, but I am still blessed beyond measure.

I have a wonderful husband who doesn't really understand how I feel, but he listens and lets me cry when I need to.  

I have a sweet little boy who may not always want to give me hugs, but he does when I really need them.

I have an amazing family that loves me no matter what.

And most importantly, I have a Father in Heaven that is there to listen to me when I feel alone and beat down. The wonderful thing about Him is that I never have to worry whether He has time to listen to my pleas. I know He loves me and that I will be blessed for striving to live through this trial as best I can. And when I remember that, life doesn't seem quite so hard.