I have a difficult child. I know that everyone's kids are difficult in their own way, but I feel my difficulties every day, almost all day. Yes, that includes nighttime. You see, Benjamin does not like to sleep. He will take 3 naps, but none of them are more than 30 minutes. He will follow these naps with about 30 minutes of smiles and fun times and then it is back to being tired, fussy, and in constant need of attention. When I put him down for a nap, he screams. When I put him in his crib at night, he screams. The only times he doesn't do it is when someone is over or his daddy is home. He wakes up at least twice in the early morning and cries for food. I have let him cry for an hour and a half before and he will not go back to sleep unless I get up and feed him.
Anyone who knows me knows that I need more sleep than most people. I don't function well without it. That being said, I haven't had a full night of sleep since November of 2010. I am running on empty. My body craves nothing but sugar and I have to force myself to make healthier choices. I love my sweet little boy, but he takes everything I have. I felt strong impressions that we needed to have a baby when we did, but sometimes I wonder why this is that time. What am I supposed to learn from this experience? I don't quite know yet. i hope I figure it out soon so I can move on to a new learning experience that requires less lost sleep.
10 years ago
Had I know, and lived way closer to you, I totally would kidnap (you would totally know about it) your son for a night and let you get some sleep. I hope it starts to get better soon. Do you think it might be teething?
ReplyDeleteI felt exactly the same way for Sadie's first 2 1/2 months of life. I had no idea why God had told us to have a baby, and why on earth I had listened to Him. I thought everyday how much I would like to go back to my life before Sadie, but then I realized that my life was not complete. She's not easy, but I know what you mean that you love him more than you know. I guess we both just got "lil stinkers" :P I love you, and I'm excited to come out and meet your sweet baby and to see you. I am here for you anytime you need it, even though I'm so far away. Love you dearly.
ReplyDeleteHunny Girl...I had the same baby...I had to teach him to sleep in a swing...he didnt sleep in a crib until he was older...even now, I have that little boy....they are strong willed, intelligent, and exhausting....I sometimes wonder why I even had kids...please email or call me for anything! I would love to help....it is a closed world for people with strong, active kids....but we need to pull together more. ((hugs)) 540-320-7366
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